The story

In july 2004 I did my first workshop about my own healing system "Healing Hearts- the Power of Love". At the end of it somebody asked if I couldn't record a CD with the meditation as it would be much easier to send this loving energy with a guiding voice instead of picturing it yourself. I said why not, but couldn't imagine how to do something like this and didn't think about it anymore for some time.

Then Swati, my friend from Boston, had the same idea. More people followed. I liked the idea but still didn't know how to do it, without the appropriate music etc.

In the end of september 2004 I visited my friend Pamela in Laguna Beach. We did a joined workshp and I taught them Healing Hearts. Pamela had invited her harpist friend Marcia Brannon to play her harp while we were doing our guided meditations.

When I was guiding the Healing Hearts meditation, Marcia started playing the harp absolutely beautifully. It seemed like she took the energy and played it out in music. Everybody loved the combination of it and it gave it an even deeper level. We had never seen each other before that or even talked with each other before we started. But after my workshop Marcia came to me and asked spontaneously: "Have you ever thought about making a CD of this? I think more people should be able to hear this! We should do this together."

I hadn't thought about making a CD for some time and was very astonished and very happy. We decided right away to do it together when I would be back in California for Doreen Virtue's Professional Spiritual Teachers Training. Marcia already had an address of a local studio which she wanted to contact.

That's how I got the music for my project. It just came to me effortlessly. But it was even better than this.

In the meantime I went back to Switzerland. Marcia and I had connected on a deep level. We didn't need words to understand each other. Everything was just very clear without saying anything. We both had the same intention. We had no doubts, neither security or anything at all. Just our word and our intention and trusting that everything would be just the way it needs to be as this seemed so divinely guided.

Marcia went to visit Ron in his studio and liked him very much right away. The studio is his hobby and he is working there on weekends. That's why he only wanted to charge us 200$ for however long the recording would take. This made it very much affordable for me, and so we agreed to do it there.

When I arrived back in Laguna Beach in february 2005, we still hadn't fixed a date with Ron because it was very difficult for Marcia to reach him. They communicated via answering machine. But I didn't worry at all (which still surprises me) and I trusted that we would meet at the perfect time.

Then I talked to Marcia over the phone. She was very excited and told me that she had composed music for the CD recording. She had used a special code, invented by Bach, to create a melody out of a word. Every letter is assigned with a note. She took every letter of the word "Healing Hearts" and transfered it to a melody. I was very excited and happy to hear how blessed I was! Somebody composed music for my project! I wanted to listen to it right away. But that wasn't possible, as Marcia lives 40 minutes south of Laguna Beach and needed the remaining time for practise. So I decided to trust my feelings and just let her play the music during the recording. Which meant I didn't hear the music that would be on my CD before it was actually recorded. I still trusted that everything is just as it needs to be.

On saturday, february 5th we went to the studio. Marcia picked me up. We saw each other for the third time in our life...

We felt very comfortable right away with Ron. His bright and cheerfull behaviour made us forget some of our nervousness. All three of us connected very fast and he was open to our very intuitive way of working together.

Then I was finally able to listen to the music for the first time. I liked it very much (and was relieved!!!). My heart started to overflow with love and joy when I listened to it. One part seemed very familiar to me. So I asked her about that part. And Marcia said, that was the part composed of the words "Healing Hearts"...

Then we just started playing, without any rehearsal. We just both stated the intention to connect on a deep level and listen to the guidance of the angels and spirit. Marcia had a very difficult task as she wasn't able to stop in the middle of her playing because she was improvising it all. That means that she had to play 25 minutes straight without mistakes and without stopping. And she could hardly move because of the headphones and microphone around her... But she did an excellent job each time! It was amazing!

The first version didn't satisfy us yet. I had noticed that some part of the music didn't fit what I was saying during the meditation. We didn't have a clear outline of what I would say and what she would play. So we just asked the angels to assist us and fit music and words perfectly together.

When we did it for the second time, I was very happy because the music really seemed to fit the words perfectly, as if we had planned every detail of it! We were so happy and excited about it and could hardly believe it!!! When I said: Let the energy of Healing Hearts flow out of your heart, Marcia, as if planned, started playing the part of the music composed of "Healing Hearts". When I said let the energy flow, Marcia started the flowing part of the music etc...

When we were finished with the second time, we just knew that that was it. That's what we want to keep. All of us loved the energy of it. I even liked listening to my own voice. I thought: "Hey, who's that girl? I love her voice!" LOL And Marcia loved her music too, even though usually we are very self critical.

I also loved redoing some passages where I had made some slips of the tongue. Ron thought that I was a natural... What I did was I told the angels to help me find exactly the same way of saying it, so I was able to match the gaps perfectly without problems. We were so amazed how working with the angels made everything so smooth and easy and fun!

Ron said that we could try now to use the music and do the german version with it. I disagreed because I had a feeling that the german version has another energy to it and therefore needed a slightly different music. But I tried it anyway because Marcia had gotten pretty tired.

I tried it, but I didn't like it at all. Something was missing and not fitting. We needed both of us present in the moment to make it whole. We decided to do it together again on the next day.

Usually Ron plays rock music and even recorded heavy metal bands in his studio. So usually the projects in this room are a lot louder. But he was very open to our very different kind of sound. He had never recorded a harp before and it was very fascinating for him. He also liked the spiritual aspects of the meditation. He doesn't usually do it himself, but he was very open. When he first listened to it all, he said that he would like to just sit there and relax and enjoy it instead of handling all the recording. He didn't get tired of listening to it very passionately each time we played it.

During the night I didn't sleep well. I kept waking up and I constantly heard the harp music playing in my ears.

Swati, my friend from Boston had set the intention to join the project in spirit. On sunday morning I chatted with her and told her how it went in the studio. I had had a flash of her standing next to me almost physically during the recording. I also told her that I needed to talk louder this time. I had brought Ron's technical equipment to a limit with my quiet voice...

I agreed with Swati that she would keep telling me to speak up. She suggested that she would peek me into my back to remind me of it. We decided to test it right away. When we did, I didn't feel a peek in my back, but I felt my feet becoming very warm. When I told Swati about it, she was very excited and told me that she had been guided not to peek, but to merge with my back and feet and focus on warmth.

Then we went back to the studio. The energy was different already. We seemed to have known each other for ages. Ron had even lit some candles and made the room darker and cozier.

When Marcia attuned her harp, I talked to Ron. He told me that he had listened to ourmeditation several times and that he had noticed that when I said 'close your eyes' it sounded like 'close your eye'. We both laughed trying to imagine closing just one eye instead of two. We even joked about adding exercises on how to close just one eye to the booklet ;-). Then he raved about the sound of my voice and how it reminded him of Gwyneth Paltrow in Lord of the Ring. He said that it sounded like an angel was speaking through me. I was just smiling at him and saying, maybe that's the case... Very funny because he didn't seem familiar with channeling..

When we started recording the german version, I immediately got a warm feeling running through my body and I heard the words: Speak up! And so I did.

But I didn't feel comfortable at all. I had become nervous because now we were working on the german text. Which means that everybody at home would be able to hear and understand it. That was a step further in my coming out of my spiritual closet. I felt like people would be able to look into my soul. The english version hadn't been a problem because most of the english speaking people I know are very spiritual. I needed a break to recenter and release some fears.

I went outside, took some deep breaths and wrote an sms to Swati. I wrote:"It works. But now I'm not soft enough", meaning that the speaking up part works. But Swati didn't recognize my mobile number which is different from the US, and tried to figure out who had sent her this message. She had already asked her husband if some secret girlfriend had sent him a message and sent it to her number by accident. LOL So I called her to explain myself. LOL We laughed a lot about this confusing situation and that already helped me to feel better.

Swati then gave me some great advice and helped me to clear my blocks. I also remembered some techniques I had learned and never used in a workshop I had ended up taking by accident. They helped me a lot too and I was again reminded that everything happens for a reason.

When I went back inside I was much more centered and calm, ready to try it again. I explained to Ron and Marcia, that German wasn't my mother tongue and that I only speak it at school. I have never lead someone through Healing Hearts in German before. Just in Swiss German. But the written language in Switzerland is German, that's why I am recording it in German instead of Swiss German. And also because people in Germany and Austria wouldn't understand Swiss German. Ron was very astonished and suggested that I also record the meditation in Swiss German. I was very excited about that because I didn't think we had the time to do so, also because of the length of it. But that decision leaded me to being one of the few mdeditations available in Swiss German. And in the end all three versions fit exactly on one CD.

This time the German version was ok. It still didn't sound as soft as the english one, but we realized that the german language is totally different anyway. We were amazed again how music and text seemed to fit perfectly, even though Marcia didn't understand a word I was saying. LOL She had tuned into the energy and let her music be guided to the perfect match. But now it became tricky. We had to redo two small spoken parts. But Ron didn't understand a word of what I was saying in the text... So we had to rely on numberes of the tape and our intuition again. That's how it worked very well. So we had the german version completed, again after the second attempt.

At first I had been a little disappointed because in one part the music didn't seem to fit at all. We started discussing the difference between languages and the people speaking them. We noticed that the energy of a german spoken sentence could be very different to the same sentence in english. There is also different ways of expressing the same thing. We also realized that probably german/swiss people would approach it all in a different way, and that's when we realized that the music was actually fitting perfectly. That was a very interesting realisation.

After a short brake we started the Swiss German version. And finnally I had reached "home"... That's where I felt really comfortabel and it was very easy. One trial attempt and we had it completed. I even had to translate the script from German to Swiss German while speaking because I hadn't planned to do it in Swiss German too, but I could finally just be open to channel the energy and go with the flow. We were also happy that we didn't have to do it again after now already 6 hours of recording with hardly any brake.

While the meditation was transfered to the computer and burnt on cds, we enjoyed some more time together in this special group. We were very happy how we had been guided to each other and all of us had the same way of approaching this project in a very open and guided way. We also wanted to keep it as natural as possible without using all the techniques to make it even more perfect or change the sound of it with the technical equipment of the studio. So we just enjoyed the flow of this magical weekend and our precious time together.

At the end of this long day (it was almost midnight), Marcia surprised me with a very special gift. She had bought a harp pin. She was wearing it with her all the time while she was composing the music for Healing Hearts and kept it in the harp while she was practising it and also during the recording. The pin now carries the very special energy of our work.

When I got home I didn't expect such a long waiting time until my CD would be released. But it was worth every minute of it, because I found a designer who took my art work (the heart and the background) and put it into a wonderful design that gave the whole cd the last needed touch.

On may 31 2005 I finally heard a truck in front of my house and he delivered many boxes with 500 cds. 10 months after the first question of my seminar member, 8 months after meeting Marcia for the first time, and almost 4 months after completing the recording.

I am still very excited about all the guidance and divine interventions we experienced during this project. We were in a very special energy all the time. We also feel very blessed that we could be part of this beautiful new energy project and hope to reach many people with our pure intent of spreading love, light and healing to every listener.

I want to thank everybody who supported us in any way during this project. My special thanks go to: José, my family, Marcia, Ron, Swati, Pamela, the first professional spiritual teachers training class, Doreen and Steven, Roger, Sonja, Doris.

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